Girls girls girls

A few things that I dislike:-

Girls who take advantage. Example - a girl ordered expensive food when a guy (who is not her boyfriend) offered to pay for the food.

Girls who are dependent - a girl goes shopping and saw a dress that she liked. After trying on the dress she put it back on the rack and says " I will ask my boyfriend to buy it for me".

Girls who gossips - they pretend to be concerned of a friend when all they want is to find out some juicy stuff. Questions like " Is Danny aftering Cindy? Cindy came back late last night. Did she go out with Danny?" Then she goes on to tell... "The other day Danny gave a dozen of roses to Cindy but Cindy just could not be bothered with the gift. She just put it at the rack near the shoes... bla bla bla..

Girls who are inconsiderate - a group of friends goes out for dinner and later hang out in a cafe. Half way through the dinner, one of the girl wants to go back home and asked a guy friend to fetch her back. The guy has to make a long trip to fetch her back then drove back again to join the friends at the cafe. The thing is - if you cannot stay long then make sure you drive yourself so that you do not disturb others.

Noticed that I talked mostly about girls?? Well, I am a girl myself and I find that girls can be quite a pain in the a**!

Is this normal

There is this friend whom I met a couple of months ago. We met through a mutual friend and we sort of like started to hang out ever since our first dinner appointment. (I say dinner appointment and not date cos she is a girl and I am a girl). Somehow, both of us would go for dinners and outings on several occasions. We would sometimes go out together with my husband and a bunch of other friends.

Then I noticed lately that the outings and the calls she made to me has been quite frequent. I do not know why but I totally freaked out. I mean, in all my experiences with my other girl friends, I have never had one who calls me everyday and asked to be met almost everyday. Sometimes, she would call me like 3 times a day. I guess it would have been normal if this situation is where a guy goes after a girl.

Well, I questioned myself.. is it normal for a friend to be calling another almost everyday and asked to be met? What is wrong with me? Why do i freaked out? I told myself that it could be totally a normal thing.. that perhaps she is alone and have not much friends...

Well.. I tried not to feel this way but I found myself avoiding going out with her. I guess, I feel choked. Each time I find having to explain to her why I cannot go out and what I have to do for the day. Is like having to report to her what I am up to each day.. Argghhh!!! is killing me....

Sigh.. today is Sunday and I just received a sms from her for a meet up again.. Last night, she asked for mahjong session...

Call me boring but I sometimes think that I have passed my age on doing stuff like that.. I mean I should be using my time to earn money, do my work, clean the house etc.. afterall.. I am a married woman planning to have children...

When one gets angry

Have you ever been really mad that you totally lose it? I mean you practically just hit the person so much so that you do not realise that your hand is all bleeding and that the other person is practically all down and out. Well I just heard an amazing experience from and aunt about her fighting days.

No, she is not the receiving end but rather the one who give the blows. Well, in all my life I find it extremely hard to even kill an ant, let alone hitting someone. I guess if I really ever do that, it would be something that upsets me greatly.

Anyway, it was quite awesome when I hear how this aunt of mine go through some of her fights. Well, considering the circumstances she goes through I would guess that sometimes, the world need someone like her to stand up for the weak. Well, she can really fight.. I mean really really fight. She told about an incident where she got so mad when her big sister was beaten by the husband. She barged into the house with a rod in her hand and went nuts hitting the brother in law. She had to be pulled back by her own husband and neighbours.

Accordingly, the whole neighbourhood shook when she arrived at the scene, "rescuing" her big sister. I would think that the brother in law would have been badly beaten have it not been the husband pulling her away. Not having enough of it, she took the same rod and smashed the car windscreen.

Well just listening to the story, I can already imagine what a scene it can be!

There was also this one time that she stood up for her sister again. At that time, she was just about 19 or so. Apparently, her big sister was being bullied and hit by a neighbour. Having known that, she barged into the house again and started to hit the poor guy. She took a potted plant and smashed it on the guy. Luckily it got on the guys back and not the head.

What happen to her after that? She and the sister was apprehended by the police and was brought to the station. However, at the police station, having sat there for almost half a day, she got hungry and asked the police for food. The police brought the canteen food. Having seen the not so edible food, she complaint to the police and demanded to be served chicken rice with drumstick! Ha! Ha! The police found her rather astounding and actually instructed someone to buy for her and her sister!

I would say that some people are born to be that 'gungho". No fear whatsoever.

Most of the time, the fight is not unnecessary but rather in the action of standing up for herself and for her family memmbers. Anyone who touches her family or her property would have wished that they never crossed her path.

Well.. she has definately mellow down after all these years but she still has this energy in her when she talks. And I suspect that if there is a need to, her fist is still as good!

Story....

The girl sat on the side of the road, looking forlorn. She sighed deeply thinking about what had happened. She is so confused and alone right now. Deep inside her, she felt a total emptiness.. the feeling that had not been there for a long time.

She gaze up into the sky and wonder if the stars are laughing at her. She went into deep thoughts and the image came into her mind. The face that she has long wanted to forget. The heavy set eyes of the face stared back at her in the same empty look that she has now. A sudden rush of tears streamed her face. She quickly wiped it off and stood up. Shaking her head frantically she tried to push the image away. There in the open darkness, she started to walk towards the woods. Her feet seems so heavy.. just as how her heart is feeling now.. heavy and sad. As she walked towards the woods, it reminded her of her childhood. She was poor but happy. She was never alone until tragedy hit her...

Wasting my time

I have been losing focus nowadays. I do not feel like myself. Ever since I left my company and started on my own.. I have been different. I have more time now. More time to do the things I have always wanted and yet I felt that i have not make good use of my time. I am frustrated at myself. I felt like I have not much time left and that I have been wasting my time.

At the time when i am suppose to work, i felt like my energy is all drained even though i have not been doing much. In the days when everyone else is working, I felt like time stop for me and there is nothing much to look forward to.

I was not like that before. I was an workoholic. I enjoyed to a certain extent being busy and occupied. Nowadays... infact for the past few months already, I felt quite redundant. I felt like i have not been making full use of my time. In a way, I felt like I have been wasting time and have not been accomplishing much. This frustrates me now.. and yet when i wake up tomorrow.. i forgot about today and this makes me lazy ...