Emptiness

Mom and Dad has been here for holidays for a week now. I have been enjoying mom's good home cook food. I can't help but feeling that I will be missing them terribly when they go back on Monday. Now that I am not staying with mom and dad, I appreciate them more than I used to. Is a blessing to have them around. So there is this sadness thinking that they will be going back in 2 days time.. sigh...

Changes

Changes in life is inevitable. Life IS a constant change. A normal reaction of most people is always to resist change. But if the change is good, we should embrace it.

I for one, do not believe in changing people nor allowing others to change me. Having said that, it does not mean that I would not change myself for betterment. I simply believe that changes can only happen if you allow it to happen - it has to be one's free will. We cannot force a person to be the person that we want. I for one, do not think is right for us to dictate how one should and should not behave. We can voice but we cannot impose.

I believe if everyone would accept the way that the person is, then only would change comes in voluntarily.

Singapore

Is been ages since I last went to Singapore. I would say almost 20 years ago. My last trip there was for a medical examination where I passed the interview of becoming a nurse in Singapore GH. I came back without taking up the position.

Yesterday I made a day trip to Singapore for business. It was well... disappointing. When I arrived at Changi airport, I got into queue among with other visitors. Somehow, there were a lot of Indian nationality in queue. An officer went round to check on the imigration card - to affirm if the guests have fill up the form. A group of Indian visitors who did not were immediately asked to leave the queue. Another officer checked one visitor who have partially filled the form. With such rudeness, the officer raised his voice and scolded the poor visitor. It was downright rude and I was surprised. This happen in the airport, the very first place that I touched down. Pure practice of racism can be seen for they were just targetting the Indian nationality.

Even as I was boarding a taxi from Orchard Road to the airport later in the afternoon, I was carrying a big bag on wheels. What surprised me was the taxi driver did not even open the boot or come out of his taxi to help. When I boarded a taxi back here in KLIA, our taxi driver actually popped up the boot open, came out and carried my heavy bag.

I will be making another trip to Singapore in July and I hope it would not be as dissappointing as this trip. The place failed to impress me. I found our shopping centres surpassed the ones they have in Orchard Road. Infact, I think our own Bukit Bintang is more interesting than Orchard Road. Not mentioning our glorified KLIA is way more impressive. Of course, Changi airport is old but coupled with rude staffs.. now that is a major turn off for the visitors.

Penang Trip

Normally penang trip would just be a trip back home to see my families. This time round, it is really a sightseeing trip. On the 1st of May, we went back to Penang with our SS brothers and sisters. What I trip I would say. Reminds me of the Rotaract days when we were the host and took our guests for sightseeing.

Fort Cornwallis

Khoo Kongsi

Penang Hill

Is been years since I went up to Penang hill, Kek Lok Si or visited Fort Cornwallis. I hardly make it a point to savour Penang food when I went back since mom's food would be what I crave for. But this time round, there were loads of Penang hawker food. Is most enjoyable to be spending time with my newly found brothers and sisters. Looking forward for more trips!

Pondering...

Life is short, time passes fast, we get old each day and we can never get back our youth. The question is, have you live your life to the fullest? Sometimes, I feel like I started slow in life, especially when I feel like I have so much to do, to accomplish. But the truth is, there are different moments at different point in our life, we just need to embrace it, treasure it and learn from every life experience.

Time is precious - somehow, this makes so much more sense now than I was younger. Well, I guess age is catching up, too much thinking... :)

Susan Boyle

I am bowled over by Susan Boyle. It is amazing to see such talent. Looking at her, she is just like an ordinary lady age 47, from a small town in Scotland. When she walked on the stage, saying that she is trying to be a famous singer, everyone - the audience and the judges - sneered at her. That is what I am ashamed of. The irony that most of us do judge people around us. Most of us think that we are good enough and that anyone else is not as good.

When the music started, some audience closed their mouth - the reaction of embarrasement, as if Susan will make a fool of herself. Susan started to sing and everyone jaw dropped. She just got the most amazing voice. Even Simon Cowell has a disbelief face on him.

Yes, Susan got a standing ovation from the crowd, including the judges. At the end 0f her song, she has the most thunderous applause ever. I like what one of the judges said, Amanda, "I am so thrilled cos i know that everybody was against you. I honestly think we were all being cynical and that is the biggest wake up call ever. And I just want to say is a complete privilege to listen to you".

Susan Boyle BGT Audition

Leeches

I "accidently" went jungle trekking last Sunday. It was supposed to be a casual relaxing trip in Bukit Cherakah with some photo sessions. However, Scott suggested to trek in to where there was supposedly a beautiful dam. The trekking was supposed to be 15 minutes. - but it took us about an hour to reach.

What I was afraid of was the leeches. I have never been bitten by a leech. I have never really seen a leech. As we were progressing along the trip, Jaymee spotted some leech on her jeans. Looking at the leech, it was just a small little worm-like thing. I does not scare me.

So as we trek along, it was raining. All of us were drenched, the path were blocked by branches here and there and at some point, we have to climb up and climb down some slopes. Walking along, I even hit a tree branch full of thorns (which I later found a 5mm thorn embedded in my head - it was removed with a tweezer).

Anyway, as we reached I decided to check my legs for leeches. That is where I got the biggest shock - I have never scream this loud. I found the fattest leech - obviously full after sucking my blood. I screamed on top of my lungs. A friend helped me to removed 4 leeches from my leg as I continued screaming. Gosh - it really freaked me out.

Well - is was an experience I would say - and one that would leave me cautious everytime I jungle trek. The bleeding took hours to stop. There are 4 marks on my leg now and I hope it heal fast.

Intoxicated Coffee

That's it! I am totally going to stay away from coffee. I can't believe I got drunk drinking coffee.

Well I was a coffee drinker. Infact, I love black coffee during my younger days (yea.. getting older now). My aunty used to call me names "Or Nya" which means "black girl", simply because I like to drink black coffee.. just like my dad.

Just about 2 years ago, I had palpitations which was caused by continuous night of drinking coffee at Old Town Kopitiam. After the experience, I stopped drinking for a long long time. I had my glass of coffee last night at Wong Kok. Just about an hour later, I started to have funny feeling of giddiness and nausea. I came back feeling sick. I had a sleepless night as a sick feeling overwhelmed me. Is like my blood is filled up with caffeine and is driving me nuts!

Anyway - no more coffee for me - I will just stick to chocolate drinks or plain water...

Doggie the stray

I was this close to owning a dog, a shitzu the other day. Someone had to give up his dog after meeting his new girlfriend who somewhat is not into dog. So the situation arises where he has to choose between the dog or the girl. He opt for the girl. I was this close to adopting the dog. But I did not. I gathered that I will not be able to spend so much time with the dog and it would be.. injustice.

Just now, as I was stepping out of the car heading to a mamak stall, I saw a stray dog, kneeling in front of a table where 3 girls were sitting. Doggie was hungry but what broke my heart was seeing doggie crippled. The poor thing lost one of its leg. I think the injury is quite recent for the wound still shows. I feel so sad.

There and then, I wish I had a stronger determination to bring doggie home, to nurse it, feed it and care for it. This is my heart's desire but I do not have the determination to do it. I am angry at myself. I felt that I could have make a difference to doggie but I did not do it.

I can see that doggie is afraid of human but yet, he sat there afar, quietly begging for food. I can still see its eyes in my mind. After a while, my friends, Sue, Caryss and Winnie did the most blessed thing - they went to buy dog food for doggie. Bless them for at least doggie can sleep well tonight.

I pray doggie will find its happiness.

Upside down

My sleeping hours are upside down. Have difficulty waking up in the morning. Tired. At night I sleep late. I got back from work just now and took a nap. I was dead tired. Now is 2am and I am wide awake. Tomorrow I will have difficulty waking up again. Sigh....

Tomorrow will be better

She is like a walking zombie. Her soul are torn apart. The problem lies in her. She has to wake up and realise the situation. She needs to get out and see the whole situation in a different perspective. Now, she is just blinded.. blinded into depression. She sees the whole situation as an end. Her doors are closed but in actual fact, she only need to realise that there is a bright path waiting for her. All she need to do is make a decision. Nobody else can make that decision for her. She has to be strong and she need to pull through this situation.

Know that tomorrow will come and tomorrow will be a better day. Whatever difficult situation you may be right now, know that it will end. Just as how people say, good things will come to an end, do know that so will bad things. We just need to be positive and see things in a different perspective.

I pray that she gets out of this.

Lucky or unlucky?

I started my year oddly this year. Just 4 days before CNY, I twisted my neck. The oddest thing is I twisted it while walking in the office. Weird. A sudden twist had me in pain and in less than few hours, my head was tilted to one side. I went to the hospital for a jab - right at my ass. Powerful jab I would say as it healed quite fast. I was determined to get well before CNY.

On the 5th day of CNY, I fell like a "cempedak" in Teluk Chempedak, Kuantan. It all happened as I mistook a step for a slope. As I was admiring the beach, I fell, much to an agony of pain. My ankle swelled almost immediately for I sat on the same spot I fell for more than half and hour. Hubby could not save me for I "dropped" almost without a sound. The only sound that came out was cries of pain.

This time, I was not that lucky for the swell was quite bad. I visited the hospital again for an x-ray. No broken bones - thank god. I had to rest for a week at home as doctor advise against walking too much. After a week's rest, my ankle healed almost immediately. Now is blue black, but at least I am not limping anymore.

So much has happen. Some said it could be worst. I guess they are right. Perhaps is the nature's way of saying that I should learn to take things slowly and to look before I leap.

Meow Mi the cat

If I had a pet, it would starve to death.. well, I would not do it deliberately of course but I would probably be too busy and would forgot to feed the poor thing...

Recently, I accidently adopted a cat which belongs to my main tenant's maid. When my main tenant moved out, 3 cats belonging to the maid was adopted by another family, except for one poor cat who has been sick. This cat, which I have since named her as "Meow Mi" has been sick for quite a while. She is thinner than normal and is fussy with food. She would not eat the ready cat biscuits. The maid used to boil some fishes for Meow Mi and it seems that she would sometimes eat and sometimes not.

So, the other night, when I opened the back door, Meow Mi came in and brushed against my leg. I was surprised to find her there as I was told that Meow Mi actually belonged to the neighbour's maid. But Meow Mi still hangs around at the backyard and at the porch. So Meow Mi came rushing in, obviously hungry. Hubby went to buy a fish. All hubby could find was a fried fish from "mamak tong". Is my first time feeding Meow Mi and was worried when she just savour a bit of the fish.

Last night, when I got back from work, I found Meow Mi at the porch. There was a chicken leg, which she perhaps got from the nearby restaurant. I gathered that Meow Mi must be really hungry to have mistaken the chicken leg for a fish. Again, she came to me and brush against my leg. And so, I went to buy, this time, pure fish meat for Meow Mi. Unlike the night before, this time round, she almost finished her food.

Today, I forgot about Meow Mi. I went out in the morning and got back home late. Then I remembered Meow Mi. I could not find her anywhere. Sigh... I know I would be guilty if Meow Mi starved to death.. but how can I feed her when I do not know where she goes....

Now I am trying to sleep.. I would probably dream about Meow Mi tonight.. cos I can't help but to wonder if she is ok...

Why Worry?

Read this in Dr. Wong's clinic in SS2. Found it funny.

There is only 2 things to worry in life. Whether you are healthy or whether you are sick. If you are healthy,then there is nothing to worry about. But if you are sick then there are 2 things to worry about. Whether you are going to get well or whether you are going to die. If you are going to get well, then there is nothing to worry about, but if you are going to die, then there are 2 things to worry about. Whether you will go to heaven or whether you are going to hell. If you are going to heaven, then you have nothing to worry about, but if you are going to hell, you will be busy shaking hands with your friends, that you will have not time to worry! So why worry??!

Macau 1st day

Is has been a year since hubby and me visited Macau. An indeed a beautiful and romantic place. We took advantage of the cheap Air Asia flights and started a ten days journey covering Macau, Hong Kong & Shenzhen.

Looking out from the plane

We arrived Macau in the morning. Upon reaching the airport, we took a cab to the pier. We were told that we should stop at the pier to get hold of Macau map (we later learnt that we can get those from the hotel).It was the holiday season and the pier were packed with people. This would be the place to take the ferry across to Hong Kong. From the pier, you could take free shuttle buses to the hotels. Most of the buses were offered by 5 star hotels such as Venetian and Wynn.

Free shuttle buses offered by hotels

We took a bus to Hotel Metropole located near the famous San Senando Square. It was quite a challenge for us as we were not quite sure on where to stop. We chose to stop at the busiest street and what looked like San Senando Square from the pictures we have seen. We were right. We reached a busy streets, all lined up with jewellery shops, food and banks. Finding the hotel was quite a challenge as the map were all in Portugese. We took quite a lot of unnecessary walk with our heavy bags until we finally reach our hotel. Metropole Hotel, though not so big, is cosy and is actually quite near to San Senando Square.

Our hotel room in Metropole Hotel

Sightseeing is easy as we can easily walk across streets following the map. Our first stop was actually San Senando Square itself. The centre of San Senando Square was decorated with a big christmas tree and a stage for musical performance. The street were packed with people. Most of them, we gathered, were tourist from Hong Kong and China.

Busy street of San Senando Square

Our first stop was a restaurant. We had late lunch. I savoured the fried rice, which comes in quite a big portion. Food is costly in Macau. For light eaters, you can order a bowl and share with your partner.

Fried rice

After lunch, we had a leisure walk and chanced upon St Dominic's Church. A sense of peace and tranquility enveloped the prayer hall as we entered. There is a bell tower at the back of the building. It has been modified into a small museum of Sacred Art, exhibiting a collection of around 300 artifacts.

Artifacts displayed in St Dominic's Church

We continued with the walk in San Senando Square heading towards St Paul's Ruin. There were a lot of shops, adorn with latest fashion wears. We spotted a lot of young stylish girls with their high cut boots and thick furry coats. Weather was no doubt cool, but bearable alike an aircond room. Hubby and me could not help wondering why the need for such thick clothes as we were only dressed in t-shirts (we later realised that fashion supercedes praticality).

The road slope upwards as we walk towards St. Paul's Ruin. Being the holiday season, the place was really packed with tourist. Nevertheless, St. Paul's Ruin stood magnificently at the edge of the slope. History has it that the church caught fire three times and was rebuilt after each fire but the last fire in 1835 was the most serious one, where the most valuable part, the front wall remained.

St Paul's Ruin

We continued to venture into the whole street surrounding San Senando Square. The area was hyped up with a lot of shops selling array of clothes and handbags, and of course the famous Portugese tart. We paid about HKD10 for 2 pieces of Portugese tart. Is a must try for tart lovers despite the price being costly.

One of the shops selling souvenirs, portugese tarts & almond cookies

We decided to walk the streets and unexpectedly chanced upon an old mansion situated amongst the shops. It is the Lou Kau Mansion. The mansion was believed to be built in 1889. It is the home of a chinese merchant who owns many properties in the City. It is a 2 storey building and some of the rooms were decorated with chinese furniture. Entrance is free and you can easily walk in and out of the place.

Lou Kau Mansion

Walking in Macau are quite easy. You will find lanes to be small and even the backlanes have small little shops such as bakery shops. There were christmas ambience, the streets are clean and as the weather is cool, walking is quite pleasant. The place is rich with churches, we passed another church, The Cathedral as we continued our walk. By then, it was evening.

In front of The Cathedral

We continued our journey on foot and headed towards the city. As we walked, we passed by the Grand Lisboa Hotel, Wynn and MGM. The lights which adorned the buildings are magnificent to watch.

Hotel Grand Lisbao

MGM Grand

We continue to head on to an area where the pubs were. As we reached early, there was not much crowd. Just opposite the rows of pubs, stood the Goddess of Mercy statue which is 20 metres tall and made of special bronze. It was night by then and the Goddess of Mercy shone in the dark.

The Goddess of Mercy

We continued our walk and chanced upon a beautiful park. We were very much impressed with the size of the park and walkway. It is spacious but what fascinates us the most is the serenity of the park. We gathered that it is a safe place to be as girls can be seen sitting on the benches, relaxing.

We did a lot of walking in Macau, which was tiring. Nevertheless we were glad that the weather is cool which helps us to relax. We retire to bed later at night and prepared for the next day itinerary.

(More pics at Evershots)

1 January 2009

It is 11.35pm now and is raining cats and dogs. Today is 1 January 2009. The beginning of a new year. It is a year of uncertainties as many people have predicted. I just got back from One U and despite the market slowdown as what many people said, One U is crowded with shoppers. Coming out of carpark takes more than 20 minutes.

Last night, new year 's eve, hubby and me were invited by a friend to attend a dinner and dance party. It was held in PJ Hilton. That is where we celebrated our new year's eve. Hubby was down with fever and was sitting shivering throughout the night. Nevertheless, we have a fabulous time. Thanks Capt for the invitation.

Today I woke up feeling tired. Last night was a "sleep and wake" night as hubby were down with fever. So I had him covered in blanket. After sweating it out, hubby recovered in the morning. Evening sets in and hubby is back with fever again. Sigh... I will force him to see a doctor tomorrow.

Anyway, to the new year ahead.... many people will asked about resolution. I never really made any resolution. I only constantly try to remind myself to live each day as if is my last. Sometimes I forget of course, and take things for granted, but whenever I can, I strive for happiness in life. To me happiness in life is not about money. It is about contentment and about having people who cares about you around. Happiness is a gathering among good friends, it is about giving without expecting. Happiness to me is the ability to share my prosperity with my family, to love unconditionally. I have had my share of happiness thus far and I constantly thanked my blessings.

May happiness be spread among all beings in this world. Happy New 2009 to all!

Be Honest Always Tell The Truth

For sharing - a beautiful life lesson received via email:-

A successful business man was growing old and knew it was time to choose a successor to take over the business.

Instead of choosing one of his Directors or his children, he decided to do something different. He called all the young executives in his company together.

He said, 'It is time for me to step down and choose the next CEO.

I have decided to choose one of you. 'The young executives were shocked, but the boss continued. 'I am going to give each one of you a SEED today - one very special SEED. I want you to plant the seed, water it, and come back here one year from today with what you have grown from the seed I have given you. I will then judge the plants that you bring, and the one I choose will be the next CEO.'

One man, named Jim, was there that day and he, like the others, received a seed. He went home and excitedly, told his wife the story. She helped him get a pot, soil and compost and he planted the seed. Everyday, he would water it and watch to see if it had grown. After about three weeks, some of the other executives began to talk about their seeds and the plants that were beginning to grow.

Jim kept checking his seed, but nothing ever grew.

Three weeks, four weeks, five weeks went by, still nothing.

By now, others were talking about their plants, but Jim didn't have a plant and he felt like a failure.

Six months went by -- still nothing in Jim's pot. He just knew he had killed his seed. Everyone else had trees and tall plants, but he had nothing. Jim didn't say anything to his colleagues, however. He just kept watering and fertilizing the soil - He so wanted the seed to grow.

A year finally went by and all the young executives of the company brought their plants to the CEO for inspection.

Jim told his wife that he wasn't going to take an empty pot. But she asked him to be honest about what happened. Jim felt sick to his stomach, it was going to be the most embarrassing moment of his life, but he knew his wife was right. He took his empty pot to the board room. When Jim arrived, he was amazed at the variety of plants grown by the other executives. They were beautiful -- in all shapes and sizes. Jim put his empty pot on the floor and many of his colleagues laughed, a few felt sorry for him!

When the CEO arrived, he surveyed the room and greeted his young executives.

Jim just tried to hide in the back. 'My, what great plants, trees, and flowers you have grown,' said the CEO. 'Today one of you will be appointed the next CEO!'

All of a sudden, the CEO spotted Jim at the back of the room withhis empty pot. He ordered the Financial Director to bring him to the front. Jim was terrified. He thought, 'The CEO knows I'm a failure! Maybe he will have me fired!'

When Jim got to the front, the CEO asked him what had happened to his seed - Jim told him the story.

The CEO asked everyone to sit down except Jim. He looked at Jim, and then announced to the young executives, 'Behold your next Chief Executive Officer! His name is Jim!'

Jim couldn't believe it. Jim couldn't even grow his seed.

'How could he be the new CEO?' the others said.

Then the CEO said, 'One year ago today, I gave everyone in this room a seed. I told you to take the seed, plant it, water it, and bring it back to me today. But I gave you all boiled seeds; they were dead - it was not possible for them to grow.

All of you, except Jim, have brought me trees and plants and flowers. When you found that the seed would not grow, you substituted another seed for the one I gave you. Jim was the only one with the courage and honesty to bring me a pot with my seed in it. Therefore, he is the one who will be the new Chief Executive Officer!'

* If you plant honesty, you will reap trust

* If you plant goodness, you will reap friends

* If you plant humility, you will reap greatness

* If you plant perseverance, you will reap contentment

* If you plant consideration, you will reap perspective

* If you plant hard work, you will reap success

* If you plant forgiveness, you will reap reconciliation


So, be careful what you plant now; it will determine what you will reap later.

'Whatever You Give To Life, Life Gives You Back'

DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON?

An email received on some good pointers in life.. read on:-

During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said,'How do I know if I married the right person?'

I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, 'It depends. Is that your husband?' In all seriousness, she answered 'How do you know?'

Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind.

Here's the answer.

EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse / partner . You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies (unconventional behavior/habit).

Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called 'falling' in love... Because it's happening TO YOU.

People in love sometimes say, 'I was swept of my feet.' Think about the imagery of that __expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria (excitement) of love fades..

It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, 'Did I marry the right person?' And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages breakdown. People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances.

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it. I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could.

And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this):

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't 'find' LASTING love. You have to 'make' it day in and day out. That's why we have the __expression 'the labor of love.' Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage..

Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger. It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable... you can 'make love'.

Love in marriage is indeed a 'decision'... Not just a feeling.

Remember this always:

'GOD determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay and who you refuse to let go'.

Confused state

"Hung has a girlfriend, Yee of more than 10 years. They came from the same town where both family knew each other. His girlfriend isn't really his ideal kind of girl. Yee is dependent on him, does not stick to her job long and is thus jobless now.

Elize met Hung at her job place where Hung was a supplier to the company. Elize took a liking for Hung. She admires his maturity, his humanity and his genorasity. Despite knowing that Hung has a girlfriend, both still occasionally goes out for dinner and outings. Elize has known Hung for years and despite that, Hung has never uttered a word of liking towards Elize. Hung has a strong sense of obligation towards Yee. Despite the fact that he may have liking towards Elize and the fact that he spends more time with Elize, he is still very much bounded to Yee. Occasionally Hung will offer gifts and money to Elize. However, Hung supports Yee's living on a monthly basis.

Elize joins a new company soon after and that is where she met Jay. Jay took a liking towards Elize and the feelings grew day by day. Both Elize and Jay get along very well. People mistaken their relationship as a couple relationship but in actual fact, Elize treats Jay as a buddy friend. Her heart is still for Hung. Even after one year, Jay's feeling is still the same. Hurtful Jay sometimes gets confuse for Elize treats him well, she bought him gifts, shares her food with Jay and occasionally flirts with him. Jay confesses his feelings to Elize but Elize maintained that she can only treat him as a friend. After a lapse of one year, Elize still does not recipocrate Jay's feeling and Jay decided that he should move on. In order to do so, Jay started to lessen contacts and communication with Elize.

However, Elize treasures Jay's friendship too much to lose it. She tried all ways and means to communicate to Jay. Jay maintained his distant in his attempt to forget her. When all things failed, she decided to give in to Jay. She agreed to be his girlfriend. In actual fact Elize is confuse. She realises that the man she really loves could not promise her a future and on the other hand, there is Jay whom she adores but does not love, who is ever ready to shower her with love and attention.

Elize decision to become Jay's girlfriend is like a disaster waiting to happen. She gave her best but in her heart she still thinks about Hung. She still goes out with Hung occasionally. Elize told Hung about her going out with Jay and Hung supports her decision. In actual fact, Hung is not able to promise a future to Elize. Many of Elize friends does not know about her new boyfriend. She is not even able to bring Jay back home to her mom. "


I think human emotions are the most difficult thing to handle. A third party like myself would be able to see things clearly and decipher what should be done. However, everyone has their own life to live and have their own path to choose. Whatever path choosen, they will have to bear the consequences. My prayers goes out to both Elize and Jay. May they find the true path one day.

Facebook

Ah! The beauty of Facebook. I found some of my old friends through facebook. These are the friends whom I have not met for like more than 15 years. Yea.. all of us getting old at the same time but has different destiny. Emm... let me re-cap some memories of old buddies in school...

Tammy - By heart, she is a dancer. She would be the one who search the dance moves, cheorograph the steps and mixed the songs. In school we join dance performances together. To think that we actually copied Michael Jackson dance moves! Of course there is the classic Patrick Swayze moves in "I had the time of my life". Found Tammy on Facebook. She is the first old friend I found in Facebook. From the pictures she posted, I believe Tammy is doing what she enjoys - dancing.

Andora - She has always been a good friend. My best of friend where we practically did everything together in school. Andora used to have birthday celebration every year and I never fail to attend her parties. She has a loving family, the friendliest parents. She is like family to me. Have recently asked her to join to get in touch with old buddies.


Chai Peng - That is the name we called her. She is now known as Jocelyn. She has a certain kind of mixed look, not too chinese. We were in the same class .. I think in Form 1? She recently found me in Facebook and started posting old photos. Through her, I found some other friends too. She is married now, as I know with a daughter .. and is happily residing in US. The power of Facebook, regardless of distance, you can still be found!

Kathryn - Hyper active girl who talks at the speed of a bullet. There are no full stops to her sentences. That is my recollection of her. I wonder is she still talks that way? We were "schoolbus mate". Also happily married.

Suzanne - Never really did know her that well when we were in school but we bonded after SPM while working part time cashier in Super Komtar. A very down to earth person and a good friend.

Ah.. long list of friends if I try to recall of them. Would be nice to have a gathering of old buddies. So much has changed. The different journey that each of us took. I bet it would be one hell of a gathering sharing the life we have been through the past 18 years since we left school... wow!